It might be a little late for this…

…but I figured it was better late than never. I got a new hair cut, by my favorite stylist in Orlando: Brent Douglas! Since he sold his salon, he does the occasional house call. Lucky for me, because I think I’d cry if he didn’t. He’s the best…not only because of his skill but because he’s extremely entertaining. The first time I took Kim to his salon, she asked if she could have the same cut as me. His response? “No! Keiko is the future. You are now. You are what is happening right now!” She replied, “But…I can be the future…” It was very entertaining.

About the confidence issue: I don’t want anyone to think that I’m constantly down and out about my physical appearance, because I’m not. Most of the time, I’m pretty content with myself; I just get a little self conscious at times. I’m most confident when I’m home alone, in my pajamas, dancing in front of the mirror (it’s the only time I dance)…or when I get dressed up and look at myself in a full length mirror, correct my posture and straighten out my pigeon toed feet. When I’m in the company of some people, I tend to get a little awkward and self aware, because I can’t see myself and wonder what it is that they are seeing. It’s something about the lack of control that makes me feel vulnerable. It’s kind of odd, the difference in how I view my physical appearance when I’m alone, versus the company of others. I’m the same way with photographs. I have no problem taking my own photos, because I am relaxed and completely natural, and I can pick and choose which ones to post. The minute someone else is behind the camera, I am fidgeting and completely self conscious. That’s why I can sit here and post a bunch of photos of myself, without batting an eye, but get all weird and girly in less controllable situations. Does that make sense to anyone?

In related news, I have a photo shoot tomorrow and I’m a little nervous! Wish me luck.

-Keiko Lynn

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  1. good luck with the photo shoot! i knwo what you mean, i can be kidn of insecure and quiet but when it comes to fashion, well, i can control it. thats why i fret for weeks over what i’m going to waer to a big event, especially when i’m meeting new people. i can’t control what i’ll say to them, but i can conrol what i’m waering :/

  2. I think that’s a great idea. Let me know when you are in town. πŸ™‚ However, I can quote your entire paragraph on being good at photographing myself and bad at posing for others- say NO to Belle as a model!

  3. You don’t seem to fidget while bobby takes pictures of you in the street! They are always very natural and beautiful πŸ™‚

    And about your “awful” hair in the last post, it looks fine! Many people would be very happy only to have one of your things in the picture: gorgeous make up, cool clothes and beautiful smile. You look pretty, and the hair doesn’t dim it a bit!

    (sorry for possible misunderstandings, I’m not native english speaker :))

  4. Aw, man, you mean he doesn’t have a salon in Orlando at all, anymore? I mean, actually, I like my hairdresser a lot, but I also like having backup!

    And I used to be hugely self-conscious, but I gave that up at some point in college. I still am to a degree, I know my strength is more in personalities in looks, but I think looking like you’re enjoying yourself is the most beautiful thing in the world. Plus, thanks to Facebook, if I worried about all the horrendous photos of myself that have been tagged, I’d never get out of bed!

  5. Beautiful girls are the ones who don’t know it most of the time (or maybe they reject the idea).
    On the contrary, I know i’m not beautiful, i sure can be pretty (and confidence, you get it with time, patience and make up πŸ˜€ ) but i can still dream of being as pretty as you one day (I already got the japanese name), won’t happen. πŸ˜€ So you should feel really confident on this subject.

    Oh, and I love your make up (and hair do, of course), is that blue or green ? Do you have any tips for me to do it myself ?

    Thanks !

  6. I completely understand! I always feel really weird when someone other than my boyfriend or my sister (or myself) take pictures of me. It’s like… you can’t tell what the other person is thinking. Do they think you look good? Bad? And the thing is, more likely than not, they think you look great, but it’s that tiny seed of doubt that can really stick around in your mind. You are gorgeous though, and I’m sure that everyone you meet thinks so too. Don’t worry too much, it’s stress for no reason.

  7. Don’t appologize for being humam. We all have our insecurites. Just because you happen to be a stylish and goodlooking person doesn’t mean you can’t have them too. Everyone has that bit of them that they just wish they could alter. Confidence is accepting our imperfections as a part of who we are. Cheers to you.

    And I didn’t want to sound too sappy.

  8. I wish you good luck!)I’m looking forward to see the photos from this photo shoot!) the best time when you can dance -when you are alone at home wearing pajamas-I totaly agree!)))

  9. Hi!

    I just wanted to let you know that I love your blog and think you are adorable!!!

    We all have confidence issues, some are just better at hiding them πŸ˜‰

    I have heard people say that they are very happy no one can read their mind b/c of all of the awful things they might be thinking.

    I am glad no one can read my thoughts, b/c all they would hear would be “am I sitting up straight?” “has my hair gone wild?” “why are they looking at me like that…do I have something smeared on my face?”

  10. congratulations for your beautiful blog tha makes me find out that I wasnΒ΄t so weird, I also dance in front ofthe mirror and thats when I take most of te important decisions

  11. I hope this doesn't sound creepy, but I think I'm going to use this as a "I want to cut my hair like this" photo haha. I have similar hair texture, and just about the same length. My asym bob grew out, so I need some layers.

    Super cute! Oh and I just discovered your blog and love it. You've got a lovely aesthetic πŸ™‚